Part 1
This is a sequel from my previous blog entitles ‘Leslie Cheung’. Here I shall write about another selected individual’s (sufferer of Depression) story, which also make the Hong Kong entertainment circle and the Chinese movie goers shocked beyond their believes.
This is the life story of Pauline Chan, a very beautiful actress envied by others, but a less known, less famous figure in Hong Kong entertainment industry. She was a second rated and soft porn actress, and an unknown model.
In Shanghai, on 31st July 2002, Pauline Chan leapt from her 24th floor apartment to her death. She was 29 years old. It was an awfully miserable life for Pauline several years prior to her death. Painful to live, painful to die.
Pauline was born in 1973 in Shanghai to an under privileged, broken family. At age 12, she followed her mother to move to Hong Kong. Age 15, she started modeling. At age 17, she participated in a Hong Kong beauty pageant, Miss Asia pageant, but failed miserably. But somehow, she received requests from the Hong Kong soft porn movie directors to act in their movies. And her mother, hoping to share her daughter’s fame, had forced her to agree. How cruel. So, WHO SAYS ALL MOTHERS LOVE THEIR CHILDREN? Humbugs!
But later, she rose to fame in soft porn movies and starred in 8 of them in a year’s time. That was 1991. In 1992 she left the soft porn scene, which she disliked and hoping to gain fame in more ‘decent’ side of Hong Kong entertainment world. She chose singing, but failed again, along with more and more failures. But at the same time, she met a Taiwanese tycoon, Mr. Wong Yam Chung. Mr. Wong adopted Pauline as a daughter, along with a harem of his adoptions of other beautiful famous stars.
Her agony started on year 1997. She was supposed to appear in a Taiwan TV program. But at the back stage, she suddenly lost control of her temperament, screaming and scolding without reasons. It indicated her mental ability to reason and control had started to dwindle, and the beginning of her getting hooked with overdoses of street drugs and sleeping pills.
In year 1999, she was rejected by her adopted father, Mr. Wong, and being chased out of his luxurious resident. It was reported that Mr. Wong had given her a fair amount of money to live on before parting from her. She cried in front of the gate of his house, swallowed a lot of sleeping pills to attempt suicide and in her stupor, she striped off her clothes. She was later sent to the hospital. And that followed by a series of her stripping her clothes after that.
Being rejected from entering Mr. Wong’s resident, she had no where to go and left stranded in the Taipei airport. The symptoms of her mental illness had emerged again and she removed her under garments in the crowded airport. She spent days sleeping there. Later, as her illness advanced, there was a series of violence, in which she offended others and involved in fights.
Meanwhile, she had a short relationship with a DJ in Taiwan, and found herself pregnant. This time, she went to Shanghai, China, staying in an apartment while waiting for the deliverance of her baby.
On July 2002 she gave birth to her baby, a boy. There were witnesses that saw her in pajama that hardly buttoned well and exposing her breast, walking slowly to the hospital prior to her delivery to her baby. Her mother contacted her, telling her to stop taking sleeping pills and speeds. But Pauline expressed, ‘Actually being conscious is more painful!’ (This statement made me startled and upset. I knew her pain. I could feel it. This is the moment of the excruciating pain that only the sufferers of depression could understand).
Picture: The beautiful Pauline Chan before falling ill, and the dreadful after.
PA
This is a sequel from my previous blog entitles ‘Leslie Cheung’. Here I shall write about another selected individual’s (sufferer of Depression) story, which also make the Hong Kong entertainment circle and the Chinese movie goers shocked beyond their believes.
This is the life story of Pauline Chan, a very beautiful actress envied by others, but a less known, less famous figure in Hong Kong entertainment industry. She was a second rated and soft porn actress, and an unknown model.
In Shanghai, on 31st July 2002, Pauline Chan leapt from her 24th floor apartment to her death. She was 29 years old. It was an awfully miserable life for Pauline several years prior to her death. Painful to live, painful to die.
Pauline was born in 1973 in Shanghai to an under privileged, broken family. At age 12, she followed her mother to move to Hong Kong. Age 15, she started modeling. At age 17, she participated in a Hong Kong beauty pageant, Miss Asia pageant, but failed miserably. But somehow, she received requests from the Hong Kong soft porn movie directors to act in their movies. And her mother, hoping to share her daughter’s fame, had forced her to agree. How cruel. So, WHO SAYS ALL MOTHERS LOVE THEIR CHILDREN? Humbugs!
But later, she rose to fame in soft porn movies and starred in 8 of them in a year’s time. That was 1991. In 1992 she left the soft porn scene, which she disliked and hoping to gain fame in more ‘decent’ side of Hong Kong entertainment world. She chose singing, but failed again, along with more and more failures. But at the same time, she met a Taiwanese tycoon, Mr. Wong Yam Chung. Mr. Wong adopted Pauline as a daughter, along with a harem of his adoptions of other beautiful famous stars.
Her agony started on year 1997. She was supposed to appear in a Taiwan TV program. But at the back stage, she suddenly lost control of her temperament, screaming and scolding without reasons. It indicated her mental ability to reason and control had started to dwindle, and the beginning of her getting hooked with overdoses of street drugs and sleeping pills.
In year 1999, she was rejected by her adopted father, Mr. Wong, and being chased out of his luxurious resident. It was reported that Mr. Wong had given her a fair amount of money to live on before parting from her. She cried in front of the gate of his house, swallowed a lot of sleeping pills to attempt suicide and in her stupor, she striped off her clothes. She was later sent to the hospital. And that followed by a series of her stripping her clothes after that.
Being rejected from entering Mr. Wong’s resident, she had no where to go and left stranded in the Taipei airport. The symptoms of her mental illness had emerged again and she removed her under garments in the crowded airport. She spent days sleeping there. Later, as her illness advanced, there was a series of violence, in which she offended others and involved in fights.
Meanwhile, she had a short relationship with a DJ in Taiwan, and found herself pregnant. This time, she went to Shanghai, China, staying in an apartment while waiting for the deliverance of her baby.
On July 2002 she gave birth to her baby, a boy. There were witnesses that saw her in pajama that hardly buttoned well and exposing her breast, walking slowly to the hospital prior to her delivery to her baby. Her mother contacted her, telling her to stop taking sleeping pills and speeds. But Pauline expressed, ‘Actually being conscious is more painful!’ (This statement made me startled and upset. I knew her pain. I could feel it. This is the moment of the excruciating pain that only the sufferers of depression could understand).
Picture: The beautiful Pauline Chan before falling ill, and the dreadful after.
PA
1 comments:
What a sad story. I could feel her pain as I do suffer from clinical depression for the past ten years. May God fills her heart with joy and peace in her afterlife.
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